im feeling really lost right now.
i know im not susposed to even blame you.
and im sorry for what i said.

i just feel really angry at myself.
i feel really upset.
i dunno what to think.
i have this scared feeling deep inside of me.
this feeling of getting left behind.
this feeling of being an underachiever all over again.
i dun wanna be nothing.

i wish you would understand.
i dun wanna feel small inside.
but no matter what..
i still thank god for having u near me.
for being ever so caring and all.

when u werent online.
i was waiting n waiting for u.
but when u came online.
i felt scared again and wanted to push u away.
now im stuck and i dunno what to do or say.
but please dun leave me alone.

Alyssa