The people who hurt us, do they feel like we do?
Do they feel ugly and worthless in their skin like we do?
When they ache are their thoughts a bruised purple-blue
or are their brains always full of those rainbow-esque hues?
Do they suffer with the things that we're going through?
Or are they always indifferent to the sanity unglued?

Those people we hate, can we feel their pain?
Do we know of their nail-biting sorrow and shame?
Are we driven to cruelty by cruelty they gave?
Or is rage bred within, in its own iron cage?

And why do we hate?- Because we're not the same?
Or simply because they're unwilling to change?







Waiting for a bunch of flowers that will never come
Waiting for a bunch of lies
Waiting for your visit
Waiting for my friends to say that you are not bad

Waiting for you willing to roam the sandstorm
I'm still anticipating for your truthfulness
and your loyalty in love
I will never get it (no matter how long I wait) for it has disappeared like drifting sand

*If anticipation can yield fruit
I'm willing to be crazy of you
The suffering I bore is worthwhile
I hate myself being too passive and foolishly waiting
Chewing the suffering patiently for you to change

I'm anticipating too much
to get something out of you
How could I expect you to reform yourself
You make mistake repeatedly
I bear the suffering of waiting
And I asked myself what did I get from waiting

Waiting till you complain to me
Loyalty is voluntary
I'm anxious to wait, seeing you everyday is more like a courtship

I don't want to wait until the others fall out of love
Then only it justifies your mindless promise
If my expectation for you is too much
I can only wait for the mixed feelings that come along

Repeat *

I always wish that you could caress me forcefully
So that I could understand the extreme feelings of love
If you really love me
Everything that we went through doesn't matter

Repeat *


okay so right now im drowning in my pile of evergrowing workload.

hungry like hell, its 12pm.
but pushing on...
the only comfort comes from the Zen Moziac having a speaker function. (which i forgot for a moment)

i just sent my rejection email to A*STAR.
apprehensive.. wondering if i have made the right choice.

i miss him.
7 marks the doom.

Sighs
Alyssa