i feel miserable, angry and alone.

but there's just so much i cant mention.

when i look at you, i envy you for being able to express your feelings so blatantly.
but you should know you are pushing away the people who care for you.
and as a friend, it hurts to see this in the people around me.
i dunno what i said or did wrong that made you angry at everybody, or maybe just at me.
if i did, then im sorry.

if this post offences you, im sorry too.
it was never my intention.
xq's not here and im left alone with my thoughts.
there's just so much on my mind.
i need to let it all out and this is my only outlet left.
but just to clarify, im not feeling this way becoz of you.
you are just one contributive factor.

im sick of this feeling inside of me.
im sick of feeling so lost and alone.
im sick of suppressing my feelings.
im sick of feeling helpless.
im sick of crying.
and most of all, im sick of pretending.
becoz its killing me inside.

i wish someone would save me from myself.